That’s how it feels.

2 weeks ago I’ve given up winning Nanowrimo.

And for a reason I ignore, this week-end I decided that I would win.

So I wrote close to 30K words in 2 days.

The last 3 hours it fell like using my blood to write every word.

I don’t need to be that intense in my life. This year have been the worst year of my life. Intensely emotional. I’m not used to that. Nanowrimo couldn’t be different. I had to be intense about it. Intense about something else then my parents death.

December is there again with the memory of the call telling me that my dad died. I just can’t stand being in my body right now.

So I write like my life depends on it. And in a way it’s true. For me. For my heart.

Thank you for playing. Thank you for the love, the cheers. Thank you.

With great respect and love!

A.

 

169 thoughts on “Writing with your blood #Nanowrimo”

  3. Congratulations, fellow victor in the contest that is NaNoWriMo. I’ve just clicked on Follow, so I hope to see you popping up on my WordPress feed.
    Have a great 2015 and, most especially, a splendid Blog Blitz Day.

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  5. Congratulations on finishing NaNoWriMo! Not an easy achievement, I’ve tried 3 times and not yet made it to the finishing post. I’m sorry 2014 was a tough year, I hope you find the energy to kick 2014 into touch and have a more bearable one in 2015xx

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  10. You deserve a major congrats for writing at all after losing someone you love so much. (Few things were–and sometimes still are–more difficult for me after losing my wife.) But 30k in two days?!?! Wow!

    Please accept my condolences on your loss, my congratulations on your win, and may 2015 be a much better year!

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    1. Thank you Jeff! May your heart rejoice with the love you have for your wife. It is the greatest gift they leave us with when our love ones pass…
      With great respect! A.

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  12. I’ve never participated in NaNo…just not built to write that way…but it sounds to me that NaNo served a greater purpose for you than just churning out words. Congrats for what you have accomplished…and a gentle HUG for what you have endured.

    BTW…you’re being BLITZED! Enjoy the day. 🙂

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    1. Thank you very much! I very much appreciate all you do for bloggers. Thank you for picking up my name in the hat. The timing couldn’t be better. Hug back!
      With great respect! A.

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  13. Congratulations for finishing NaNoWriMo, AND for surviving 2014!

    Sometimes, just making it to the next day is our highest form or success. I’m hoping and praying for you to have a much more enjoyable 2015!!!

    And happy blitz day!!!

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  15. Although no one can understand how you must feel, please believe there are those of us who know you will make it through. One day at a time. That’s what parents want for their children. Keep moving forward.
    Congratulations on finishing. That’s an amazing accomplishment under regular circumstances.
    BAZINGA!
    You’ve been blitzed! I hope you read all these messages and it brings a little light to your life.
    Keep moving.
    Keep writing.
    Heather

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  21. Hey, you made it through December. That had to be rough. And you pulled off an AMAZING last-minute win at NaNo! I hope you realize that only an incredibly strong person could do that. Wishing you new peace and new strength every day.

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  24. I can’t imagine the writing coma that would result from 30k words in two days. It’s incredible. Here’s to hoping 2015 is a great year for you.
    Happy Blitz Day!

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  30. Congratulations! I always seem to have major life events keeping me from even attempting NaNo, so I have the utmost respect for everyone who finishes.

    Here’s a to a wonderful 2015!

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  31. So very sorry that you lived through such a trying and painful year. I hope that 2015 brings better things to your life, and that your fellow bloggers can help nudge things in the right direction with this blog blitz. All the best ~ Dianne

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  34. I’m so sorry for your loss and I hope that 2015 will be a much better, brighter year for you. I too have dealt with loss and I find that writing is comforting when times get tough; I hope you will find the same in your own stories!

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  35. I remember with near-perfect clarity the day my father died … 35 years ago. Congratulations for turning the emotional pain of your 2014 into a win on NaNo. Many people don’t finish, and even more don’t even start.

    Happy Blitz Day! This is a great group of supportive writer-types and we are all pulling for you. *hugs*

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  37. Because it is about life. Congratulations on learning that, and on your determination to win NaNo. Because of that intensity, you accomplished something that only a very small percentage of people ever do. You finished.

    You’ve been blitzed!

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  38. My condolences on your loss. NaNoWriMo was on my critique groups radar several years ago and we signed up. We all won the lovely certificate but lost all pride and self-respect. I abandoned everything I learned in grad school in order to pump out that work count. Who knew that passive structure gives almost twice as many words. We haven’t “done” NaNoWriMo officially sense. And this is the first year, I’ve been brave enough to read that novel written in haste. It’s in edits now and I’ve forgiven its many sins as I also correct it. This year we did NaNo unofficially. We didn’t actually enter, but it held all of us to pumping out as many words as possible OR in some cases it was revisions of a book. At any rate, let the writing lead you. Our emotions can get the best of us but writing will soothe you. Hugs.

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    1. Thank you for sharing this with me. Different stories will pull for a different structure. I use Nano mainly to explore new ideas, new characters or new genre. Other stories I had a great plan and mostly sticked to it. This year I needed to write freely, without constraint, just write.
      With great respect! A.

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  39. You deserve amazing credit for a fabulous job! This year was the first time I wasn’t able to finish NaNo. Cheers to you!

    November and September are two hard months for me. Emotionally
    Happy blitz day.

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    1. Thank you Crystal! It felt insane! And it felt soooo good! I’ll split the badge with my 2 daughters who were the greatest cheering section I’ve ever had!
      Have an amazing 2015!

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  52. The last couple of days for NaNo 2015 for me were like that scene in the movie Independence Day when they are trying to escape the mother ship and the doors are closing.

    Well done on finishing NaNo.

    Happy Blitz Day 🙂

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  56. Well… at least now you KNOW you can write 30K in 2 days. I still don’t know. Hope December went better for you than you anticipated. Take care and Happy Blitz Day!!

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  57. Happy Blitz Day! Congratulations on completing NaNo. That’s amazing that you wrote 30k words in 2 days! I hope you treated your hands and wrists to a nice massage after NaNo ended.

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  58. I am very sorry for your loss! That you still managed to win NaNoWriMo and write that much in such a short amount of time if phenomenal! Writing can be very soothing and therapeutic, and I often use it as a means of making sense of the world around me. Sounds like you are too. I wish you strength.

    Happy Blitz Day x

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  59. Congrats, fellow NaNo winner! I did the same thing as you did with NaNo this year – a mechanism for feeling as though I had control over something, that I could accomplish *something* within my power. Be gentle with yourself and know that we are all cheering for you!
    Happy Blitz Day 🙂

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  60. We have an amazing amount in common. In November 2013 I was actually hosting a NaNo writing party when I got the call telling me my father didn’t have much time. The other writers surrounded me with love and support and (I think) actually packed a suitcase for me so I could focus on getting that emergency flight from northern England to southern California. I tried NaNo again this year, even though—like you—I kept thinking of that phone call. So it was a solitary, in-my-own-head kind of journey. But I did win this time, and hope to have the book polished and published this spring. My congratulations on your win, and my most heartfelt condolences on your loss. Let us know when that book hits the (virtual) shelves.

    Oh, and we have one other thing in common. I was blitzed today too! Woohoo!!!!

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    1. Whoohoo! Isn’t it fun that Blitz thing! But how did you know I was too? I didn’t receive the email…
      If not this one, there will be a book hitting the shelf this year! I’ll let you know of course!
      Big hugs your way! With great respect! A.

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  61. Congrats on completing NaNoWriMo! I know what you mean by using your blood to complete a book. I have done that myself. Well…not actual blood. Or my own blood for that matter.

    Happy Blitz Day!

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  62. Congrats on completing NaNo! I tried it one year but as soon as my whole family arrived for Thanksgiving, I didn’t get another word written. I guess I have to plan on getting all 50k in before the the holiday.
    I hope this year is better for you!
    Happy Blitz Day!

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  67. Winning NaNoWriMo in the manner you did with that last-minute burst of determination is a huge feat. Be proud of that because I know it sucks to feel like you’re bleeding progress after giving up but you made it through. Maybe that can be one of the positive things that came out of 2014…what you describe as the worse year of your life.

    Sorry to hear about your dad. As we’ve entered into this New Year, here’s hoping that 2015 is more enjoyable for you, starting with your blog being the recipient of today’s BLITZ. Cheers to you for pushing through the rough patches of 2014 and coming out of the other side as a Winner with over 30K words under her belt!

    ~Nicole
    #atozchallenge Co-Host

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    1. Thank you Nicole!
      I remember atozchallenge this year to have the same feeling. My mother passed away in the first week… I kept on writing.
      Thank you for your support and cheers!

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  68. Please accept my condolences and warm hugs for your recent losses. I know what you’re feeling; I’ve been there. I’m sorry that 2014 was such a rough year for you.

    Writing 30k words in two days is astounding. I had to re-read that section. Congratulations on your NaNo win. I’ll be keeping you in my thoughts and hope that 2015 will be a happy, healthy and prosperous year for you.

    BTW, you’ve been Blitzed! Happy Blog Blitz Day. Enjoy all love you’ll be getting today! Eva

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  70. Sorry about your losses and I hope this year turns out to be a much better year for you. I’ll be keeping you in my thoughts. Congrats on your win, and Happy Blog Blitz Day to you. Eva

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  72. I am so sorry to read about your loss and the incredible grief you must be feeling. But I’m glad you’re finding at least a small amount of relief in writing. Congrats on winning NaNo!

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  73. Sorry for your loss, but you are on to something powerful when you immerse yourself in your writing and your story. Hope creating your world on paper helps you process your own life challenges. It has definitely helped me. Good luck and take care of yourself.

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  74. You deserve all the hugs. All of them. I’m sorry to hear you lost a parent. It’s a tough thing to lose anyone, but someone who raised you? Heart rending. So, even though you don’t know me, I’m sending you all the hugs.

    I hope your 2015 is better than your 2014, and congratulations on winning NaNo. You deserved that win!

    Happy Blitz=)

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  76. I’m sorry for your loss. I hope 2015 will be a great year for you.

    And congrats on winning! That is amazing how you did 30,000 in two days – I hope I can do that some day.

    Happy Blitz Day.

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  81. I am sorry for your loss. The death of a parent is a very emotional event.

    Congratulations on finishing NaNo—30,000 words in 2 days is some inspired writing. I hope that you find time to grieve and begin writing again. It helped me after my father’s death.

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  83. That’s some amazing effort you put in to win! I don’t think I have it in me to write nearly that much in just two days, in spite of how I naturally write very prolifically, very quickly. May the new year bring happier times and more successes for you.

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