Guilty.Period.

Today. I cried with relief. Guilty. What we all saw with our own eyes was the truth. No one today can tell us that it was all in our heads. I was so resigned. Yesterday, I was resigned. Again we would see another one get off easy. Not today. Today. We can all breathe. For…

My body and medical consent

I woke up during the lung biopsy. They gave me some sedation and I fell into a blisful state, while they shoved a camera with a small light and a needle (?) down my throat. I woke up. Coughing my Soul out of body. I heard the doctor say in a very relaxed, matter of…

Living One Hour a Day

Someone who has been living with chronic pain for years told me that I was lucky to have "at least" an hour of grace everyday. I said a weak thank you not quite sure what to respond. For me there is no hierarchy of pain. My pain is not worst or better or less than…

Green Goo for Happy Hour

When you tell people you have cancer, there is of course the natural reaction of empathy, sadness, anger, and worries. A little mix of emotions that are not always clear. I have waited weeks this time before I told people. Because when you say you have cancer, people want to fix you. Subconciously, they think…

Just what’s going on

I thought a lot about doing a post over here about what's going on with me. I didn't feel the impulse to write and I didn't just want to write two lines and sign off for weeks. So we found a tumor in my right breast and they removed it on April 18th. Actually, they removed…