I noticed the other day that I haven't been listening to music much. I put some binaural beats to help with sleep at night, but here I'm talking about music with lyrics and listening just for the fun of it. I used to listen to music during my morning/evening commutes to and from work. When…
On the Importance of Eyebrows
When I did chemotherapy four years ago I lost all my hair. When I say all my hair. I mean ALL OF IT. Not just on my head, but also on my arms, on my legs. My eyebrows, my eyelashes. The annoying lady mustache. Pubic hair. ALL OF IT. I had a moment of despair…
Pablo’s on vacation
The thing with this threesome is that I can't rely on anykind of consistency in my reactions to the treatment. Sometimes, NO perceptible change can throw me off course for a few days. Or a few weeks... Ok, so each cycle is 4 weeks. I take Pablo for three weeks and Lolaz goes uninterrupted. So…
My body and medical consent
I woke up during the lung biopsy. They gave me some sedation and I fell into a blisful state, while they shoved a camera with a small light and a needle (?) down my throat. I woke up. Coughing my Soul out of body. I heard the doctor say in a very relaxed, matter of…
Living One Hour a Day
Someone who has been living with chronic pain for years told me that I was lucky to have "at least" an hour of grace everyday. I said a weak thank you not quite sure what to respond. For me there is no hierarchy of pain. My pain is not worst or better or less than…
The Fearless Threesome
About 3 months ago, the doctor called me, and started the call by saying: "It's not good news..." I knew instinctively that she was going to tell me the cancer was back. I had been having a dry cough for a while, that could have been mistaken for asthma. But the pressure on my lungs…
Happy Hour with Pablo and Lolaz 