Hardwood coffin

I’ve been lying in the bottom of a hardwood coffin
For some time
Wondering
Am I alive?
Is my heart still beating?
I’ve come to love the darkness
The silence

You know it’s a lie
I pretend
Like I always did
To live this perfect life

There is nothing after
No pain, no joy, no love
As of before

What is the point
Of living
Trying to get rid of the pain
Searching for peace
While it is right here
In the bottom of a hardwood coffin
With eternal wonder

Would I’ve lived differently
Knowing there was an end?
Knowing that I would lost my unique
Sparkle?

Only the unending void
Of my mindless soul
Or my soulless mind?

In the bottom of this hardwood coffin
I wonder

With great respect!
A.