Guilty.Period.

Today. I cried with relief. Guilty. What we all saw with our own eyes was the truth. No one today can tell us that it was all in our heads. I was so resigned. Yesterday, I was resigned. Again we would see another one get off easy. Not today. Today. We can all breathe. For…

My body and medical consent

I woke up during the lung biopsy. They gave me some sedation and I fell into a blisful state, while they shoved a camera with a small light and a needle (?) down my throat. I woke up. Coughing my Soul out of body. I heard the doctor say in a very relaxed, matter of…

Living One Hour a Day

Someone who has been living with chronic pain for years told me that I was lucky to have "at least" an hour of grace everyday. I said a weak thank you not quite sure what to respond. For me there is no hierarchy of pain. My pain is not worst or better or less than…

Green Goo for Happy Hour

When you tell people you have cancer, there is of course the natural reaction of empathy, sadness, anger, and worries. A little mix of emotions that are not always clear. I have waited weeks this time before I told people. Because when you say you have cancer, people want to fix you. Subconciously, they think…

The Fearless Threesome

About 3 months ago, the doctor called me, and started the call by saying: "It's not good news..." I knew instinctively that she was going to tell me the cancer was back. I had been having a dry cough for a while, that could have been mistaken for asthma. But the pressure on my lungs…

On the road

At the end of June, I packed up all my stuff, put it in storage and I left. I'm not on vacation. I'm am working and writing and doing all my stuff while traveling. It is not a Soul searching kind of thing. I am not lost trying to discover who I am. I'm very…

Just what’s going on

I thought a lot about doing a post over here about what's going on with me. I didn't feel the impulse to write and I didn't just want to write two lines and sign off for weeks. So we found a tumor in my right breast and they removed it on¬†April 18th. Actually, they removed…

Listen to the rhythm of your life

First, let me wish you a luminous 2017. As we enter this new year, I wish to get to know you all better, share ideas, become partners in making life an amazing event everyday! I love you all! I just read my last post, written 4 months ago. I was so enthusiastic, ready and keen…

When it’s time, it’s time

I am the kind of person that needs to have everything handled before I move. I'm getting ready to be ready. To the point that when I'm finally ready, I'm too exhausted with stress that I don't really enjoy the thing I got ready for. I tried something different this time. I announced the release…